Happy in the Here & Now

As I was driving to work today I realized that part of having a contented heart, is being happy in the here & now.

This is not always an easy thing for me.

I'm always looking forward to the next thing: holidays, breaks from school or work, my husband's graduation, moving to a bigger apartment/house.

But mostly, a baby.

We've wanted a baby for about 11/2 years. After a miscarriage about a year ago, it's been an even harder thing to be patient for.

But we've come to the realization that at this point in our lives, this may not be in the plans for us.

I need to find peace with that. I'm trying to.

I think I need to focus instead on the other things that are making me happy.

Like how my husband has been able to stay at home every night this week, instead of spending the night at the school.

Or how Christmas time makes me feel so happy inside, and I love sitting in our little living room looking at all the decorations.

And wrapping presents last night for my husband was so fun because I got him something he'll never think of, but that I know he'll love.

And writing.

In anticipation of my goals next month I borrowed a book from the library to help get me ready. It's all about writing.

I'm so nervous, but excited at the same time.

I'm not going to be a "one day" writer anymore. I'm going to be a novelist!